Broken calluses

I thought it would be like this
I thought I would, tall enough
I thought I would get through these
I thought I would, strong and tough

brokenfallbrokenfall
without reason
broken, fall

or is it so
where my nerves don't feel

where am i now

weeping to the tunes of the ulterior?
looking under my eyes wondering?
living my world in wonderland?
succumb to mundanity?

Do you heal wounded calluses
Do you see my shut-eyes blind
If life is much more than i expected
why can't i leave behind

Do you hold all the answers
is waiting a game
Do you hear my prayers
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